Catch Up

Ok. I am going to do my best to recount the details here. I had a cute video slideshow with the song "Happy Trails" playing along. So, just image it. Because it never got posted and our computer got wiped out when we were trying to get it set up here :(.
I am going to start with Thursday October 9th(which happened to be my birthday). That's the day we left.

Early morning, really excited! A HUGE moving truck showed up and it all began. Our whole life packed up in 5 hours. It was such a weird feeling. It was really busy. People everywhere.
Trey and I seemed to be fussing about everything. Emotions were really running high. It seemed like everything was in the way and wasn't going right. There was so much to do all in one day. It was really stressful.
Caden had been sick with mono and didn't even get to say goodbye to his class. Caden and Ryan went to mother-in-law's house which was a huge help. Kannan went to school.So that gave us some time to really get things going at home. Things were going quick and the movers were gone by 2. Then came time for the little details and cleaning up.

I went to pick up Logan and as her friends saw me coming, they grabbed her and wouldn't let go. I was trying to be strong for her, but that didn't last long. As all the kids from 4th grade came out of their classrooms, it just hit me. I had watched all those kids grow up with my kids. They all know Logan's siblings. Many have been in our life since kindergarden. I love them all. It was so hard to walk out of there. Logan didn't cry. I did. She had so many little friends write cards and give her presents. Many were crying. It was tough. But we made it though that part. Then it was back to the house to get ready to go.

All I really cared about was standing in my empty house, with my family, praying and saying goodbye to that part of our life. Well, by the end of the day...
I had to run to the bank. Half of my kids were at my mother-in-laws, Trey ran there(MIL's house) to take a shower. I had huge drama at the bank, couldn't get the cashiers check needed to get the keys to move into this house( the wrong amount of our direct deposit went in), I am in tears at the bank. They had to override some things, so I ended up getting it.
I had been up since 2:30 am, I was exhausted(mentally, physically and emotionally). I thought we would leave at 3. We ended up leaving at 7:30! I left the bank.
I went and ate and MIL's house. Said painful goodbyes, and we were gone. Not from our house. Just gone. It was fine to say goodbye from there, but I didn't say goodbye to my house.

I had brought home, my two youngest girls, from the hospital there. I had healed boo-boos there. I had raised kids there. I had seen my two oldest children accept Christ there. I had seen so many tears there, laughed there, hurt there, rejoiced there. I had grown into a whole different person there. I had seen our marriage go through so much there, be transformed there.
I watched kids learn to ride their bikes there, take first steps there, so much there.
It's just gone, in a blur of memories, gone.

We got here at around 11:30. It all hit Logan as we were going to sleep. She cried such a heart felt cry. So deep. She was heartbroken. Her whole life was gone as she knew it. She just laid in the floor in my arms and cried. My heart broke for her.

But we were here. We were all together after a long 2 months. A hard 2 months. But here.
A whole new home. A whole new life. A whole new chapter to be written.....

First Things...

Hello! I have so much to tell you all about but, 1st things first.

My sweet, sweet Logan. She turned 10 on Saturday, October the 18th. I can not believe it has been 10 years already.

Logan, you changed my life in so many ways. You made everything so much better. You made me learn to give in ways I never thought I could. You showed me what is was to hold love in my hands on the day you were born. You have made me a better person, mom, wife and child of God. You make me want to do better everyday.

You absolutely amaze me. You are so smart, so gifted, so talented, so loving, so big-hearted, so caring, so intuitive, so responsible, and on and on...

You love for things to be just so and perfect. You know exactly how you want things, and if it doesn't happen, you have a hard time changing without letting everyone know. ( I have no idea where that comes from ;) ) You demand perfection from yourself in all you do. You always have. Even when you were little you like all your books stacked up in a nice and neat pile so you could read them. You loved books from the start. You loved to learn. You still do and I hope that always continues. You wouldn't even eat a Oreo cookie if it had a crack or chip in it.

You believe there is right and wrong in the world. You have always had somewhat of an adult side this way. You know that the Bible is truth and believe God for who He is and what He did. I pray you cling to those truths through you whole life.

Logan, I am so glad I get to be your mom everyday. You make me so proud. Just the thought of you makes me smile. You are changing so much and growing in many different ways. I am trying to grow with you. I still see you as that baby I held in my arms and just stared in awe. You will always be that to me.

Ten years ago my whole world turned inside out and became a better place to be. It was no longer about me. I was about you, and us, as a family. Everything I do is for you. The past ten years have flown by. I know the years to follow will too. Soon I will be yellin,' "Gig' Em!" for you. But, until then, I will keep hugging to tight. Listening to all you have to say( I love our talks) ,being there for you, and loving you every minute.

I love you Pip!

two things...

One:
I just had to post this because, how could I not!?!?
Look at how stinkn' cute she is!
Second, because at the Beth Moore live telecast, Beth talked about holding and protecting God's word in your heart. She said that when you hear or read it protect it, and gave the visual of putting your hand over your heart and holding it in.
Don't let go of it. Don't let it get stolen by the day.

This was a totally candid moment with Ryan, but when I saw the picture, my heart melted.

Lord, I pray she can always cling to your Word. I pray she falls madly in love with you and never lets go. Amen